A wonderful Day

A bad thunderstorm just woke us all up. I love storms as long as there aren't tornados. We were scrambling to make sure all the critters were in and out of the storm.

I was offered a job today. Not in the nursing home I was planning to work in. The Director was out today, she is supposed to call me tomorrow.

I just happened to stop by a Homehealth Agency and apply. The Administrator offered me a job on the spot. Yea!! Talk about a mood boost! I have worked in 3 homehealth jobs. Was branch director in one. When she saw that on my resume (its one of their competition) she offered me the job...LOL

I came home and talked to the hubby....he said take it. I just hope its not as stressful as the last one I worked in. I'll be a supervisor and not the big boss....so maybe it won't be as bad. I have the option of moving to a field position if I don't like it. So that was comforting to know. Good pay too......not as good as the hospital....but and 8-5 M-F job. So alot better hours. Now I'll have to learn to sleep at night again....LOL.

I've had some wonderful comments and messages from this blog.....it's already been worth starting it. I hope to make some lasting friendships on here.

Well....headed back to bed. It's 2:30 in the morning. I have alot of personal business to tend to today, then start my new job on Wed.

Have a beautiful day everyone and Create something wonderful!

A few Doodles

I forgot I had done these doodles last week.
They are sharpie and charcoal on watercolor paper.

I tend to start with eyes when I doodle...and come up with some weird stuff. I get mixed remarks from family and co-workers. It's funny to hear the different opinions.
"OH how pretty....looks like a peacock" "Oh that looks like a mardi gras mask" "That is scary looking" and so on.....LOL.

Again....these are taken with my camera....not scanned...so not the best pictures.

Thanks for any comments

A lonely Sunday Nite

It's 10pm sunday nite. Hubby is gone to bed, daughter is in her room and son is out with friends.

It's times like this I miss my old friends. When I remarried 10 years ago......we moved away from my friends and family. I had 2 best friends, who I eventually lost touch with.

I haven't made any close friendships since. Only people from work, who I rarely socialize with outside of work. Since I don't work there anymore......guess I won't be seeing any of them again.

I have become pretty reclusive in the last 5 years. We moved out in the country. No neighbors for miles. I love it out here....but you can't just run next door, or down the street to see friends. It gets very lonesome out here.

Have you ever wanted a close friend to talk and share secrets with....so bad it almost hurts? I start feeling sorry for myself at these times. When I talk to my husband about this (who has lots of friends...since I moved to the town he lived in) he says....well make some friends. Yea.....hey you over there in the booth next to me...wanna be my friend?? Not as easy as he thinks.

Being an artist doesn't help either......you want solitude when you work. I've tried to connect to other artists....but not alot of luck there.

So........another Whine on Line. Me sitting here...feeling sorry for myself :)

Have a great week all. 1st job interview tomorrow...wish me luck.

p.s. not a very creative weekend again :(

Not a good week

It's been a week since I last posted.

I'm sitting here at midnight....thinking on my life. I made a hasty decision last night (although the right one). I quit my job of 6 years.....walked out.....didn't look back.

I'm an RN. I have worked in an Emergency Dept. for the last 6 years. Although I love being a nurse and have loved my job up until 8 months ago....I couldn't take one more minute.

I was a volcano....waiting to erupt.....and my manager (who I have always liked) pushed the right button last night. I won't bore you with the details of last night.

Eight months ago......in November........I was working the ER.....and we caused a death. A beautiful woman in her 60's....no health problems. What we did.....and didn't do....caused her death....and I will never forget it....and will never be able to forgive myself (even tho.....I wasn't the one that directly caused it....I was there). It was not intentional....none of us meant to harm her....or her family.....but we did.

I almost quit nursing then....and have been struggling to stay with it. After 15 years of helping people and loving every minute of it......it has been very hard. I have frozen a few times.....when I needed to push a medication...and had to have another nurse do it.

I had to leave.....I have hated my job since.......dragging myself to work.....praying to God on the way......not to let anyone else die on me. Needless to say.....I have watched alot of people die since that night....including a beautiful 4 year old....that was backed over by a pickup. I can't deal with all the pain and hurt and death that comes with working in the ER anymore.

I have to do something to make peoples lives better. I have chosen to return to long term care. I love the elderly...love making a difference in their lives. I have an interview on Monday. Pray for me.....I need this.

This was one of the reasons I have been in a block with my art.......no passion....no will to create.

I can't believe I'm sitting here.....telling the world about this. No one will probably read it anyway....but it feels good to put it to print.

God bless everyone that reads and/or comments on this. I hope everyone has a safe and happy weekend.

Finally some artwork

Today was an ok day. Went to town shopping. My daughter Tara went with me.

I ended up at Hobby Lobby...bought a bunch of art supplies. I have been buying art supplies for months now....but not using them once I get home. I keep telling myself that I need this...or that....before I can start painting.

I apologize to my husband for spending money on the supplies....he sweetly tells me.....you can buy what you want/need if you'll just use them. He's always been a big support in my art and messes.

I took photos of the art journal pages I'm going to post, instead of scanning them. My scanner is upstairs in my studio....and it's just too hot up there right now. My studio is in a converted attic room. I have a small airconditioner, but I can't leave it running all the time. It takes forever to cool the room off. I don't think about turning it on...until I'm ready to paint.

My first art page is a girl I tried to paint from imagination. I'm addicted to all the mixed media artists that paint cute girls. I'm a realist portrait painter...so its hard for me to paint this way. It turned out ok....I guess. I like the colors...the tropical feel.
I call this one the flower girl.















The next 2 art pages are a Mothers Day tribute. My 19 y/o daughter bought me a large potted pink calla lily plant and gave me the sweetest card and a large flower balloon. I cried when she gave them to me. I had to save the card...so I decided to put it in my art journal. I painted the calla lillies with acrylic. My daughter thinks these art pages are "sappy"...but I love the colors and how it turned out.

Please excuse my posting skills. The image uploader is giving me fits. The colors aren't perfect...but as close as I could get them in PS.

Skeeter Photos

A new kitten and some Whining too

Today was a productive day. I painted 2 pages in my art journal. I can't scan them yet...they are still wet. I will try to post them tomorrow.

I'm posting a couple pictures of our newest addition to the circus around here. We have had her for about a week. A friend found her....couldn't find her family...so we adopted her. Her name is Skeeter. She is the sweetest, cuddliest baby.

I have 3 other cats....2 males and a female. They are full grown. I had a kitten I raised by hand since he was 3 weeks old. He disappeared about 6 weeks ago. :( He had just turned a year old. We live in the country. Lots of coyotes out here. I pray that he will come home someday.

Skeeter is solid gray with gray eyes, and the biggest ears I have ever seen on a cat. She looks like she may have some siamese in her. Long neck, slender face. Hope you enjoy the photos.

I'm headed to the art store tomorrow, to buy some new oil brushes. I let mine ruin last year. Didn't clean them after a painting.

I just received in the mail....some RayMar canvas panels. I bought a sample pack of 4 different types. I really like how sturdy they are. They are 6in x 6in. I heard about them from Carol Marine's blog (in my list of favorite blogs). She recommends them.

I'm going to try to paint some small oil still life or landscape paintings. Maybe even start painting one a day.....if I can keep up my excitement.....time will tell.

I have been having problems with Depression the last year. Never been depressed in my life...why does it hit me now?? I have had an anxiety problem for years...never depression. My Doctor tells me it has alot to do with Life changes.....my kids graduating from high school...etc. I just know...it stinks.

Well..enough "whine on Line" as I call it....lol.

Have a great day/night.....and create something!!

Well for some reason...I can't get the images to post. Let me try again in a little while.

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life

I have been in a semi block for about a year. I have only created one finished piece of art work since this time last year. And that one was a painful commission painting, that I thought would help me. I struggled with it, and didn't enjoy the process at all.

I haven't stopped creating totally...Thank God. I still draw almost every day.

I discovered Youtube a few months ago. I have watched over 1500 art videos (am I addicted, or what ....sigh) I think it has helped me out of my block....I hope anyway. I have started an art journal to share. I have always kept an art journal...for my eyes only, so this is new for me.

I have had a few health problems and personal problems in the last year that has contributed to my block also....haven't we all? My personal problems are resolved, still struggling with the health problems, but doing better.

I also let my website expire and haven't kept up with any other computer stuff. So that is the reason for this new blog.

Everyone bear with me.....and hopefully encourage me (pleassssse). I am going to try to post at least a drawing a couple times a week..and hopefully a painting once in awhile.